I met one of the most wonderful, intelligent, amazing, inspirational woman of my life. I have had the opportunity to fall in love with this amazing soul!! I finally got the courage to see if she wanted to become more than friends, we have EVERYTHING in common, down to the type of ice cream we like.... I couldn't have found a more perfect match. However she is "seeing how things go" with another person from her past, that isn't a match for her at all. This is a common story, a very real issue in my life, I just would like to understand what is wrong with me. I know it cant be the other women, so it must be something I am doing wrong, or something about me that just isn't right. I have been told I am the perfect boyfriend, however Im not sure how those ladies can say that about me when they have never dated me.
Maybe I am destined to die alone, if so then please come take me sooner than later :-(
Very Depressed and Alone
Sunday, November 17, 2013
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
Sometimes we screw up
There is no crystal ball, there is no road map, no navigation system, no real guide to help us with decisions we choose to make in our lives. We make decisions and hope for the best possible outcome, hope its the right choice, eventually heading us into the right direction.
I met a wonderful young woman, she was charming, beautiful, caring, warm hearted, & talented. We started into a relationship very fast, and I grew distant, I was nervous, guarded, I looked for the bad side of everything (even tho my heart was telling me it was ok). I had been hurt terribly in the past, my whole world had crumbled around me because I was so in love, I couldn't see anything except that. When that relationship ended, I put up barriers, walls, I encased my heart in an iron tomb, never to be exposed or hurt again. So when it started to ache, to want to get out of its prison, because of this wonderful woman, I kept it back, I held it down and wouldn't let it surface. I thought I was doing the right thing, kind of like protecting a child, or a close relative, however I was never so wrong. In doing what I thought was the right thing, I really ended up getting hurt again, and in addition hurting her. I never wanted to hurt anyone, and now all I think about is her, her smile, the way she blushes, the scent of her hair, her eyes, the way she smiled.
I dont know what the future will bring, I only know that for a brief few months, that she was a part of my life, I was happier, more enlightened, and once more in love. My hope would be that I didn't screw it up so bad that I cant be forgiven, that maybe there is some hope of us rekindling. Im not sure, but the one thing I do know is that I found love again, so it can happen, the hurt can be healed, and life will go on.
I miss her with all my heart, I love her deeply, I believe she might have been my soul mate, and I want the very best for her, I want her to be happy & be loved, and for her to know Im truly sorry for keeping my emotions trapped.
....even if it isn't with me.
I met a wonderful young woman, she was charming, beautiful, caring, warm hearted, & talented. We started into a relationship very fast, and I grew distant, I was nervous, guarded, I looked for the bad side of everything (even tho my heart was telling me it was ok). I had been hurt terribly in the past, my whole world had crumbled around me because I was so in love, I couldn't see anything except that. When that relationship ended, I put up barriers, walls, I encased my heart in an iron tomb, never to be exposed or hurt again. So when it started to ache, to want to get out of its prison, because of this wonderful woman, I kept it back, I held it down and wouldn't let it surface. I thought I was doing the right thing, kind of like protecting a child, or a close relative, however I was never so wrong. In doing what I thought was the right thing, I really ended up getting hurt again, and in addition hurting her. I never wanted to hurt anyone, and now all I think about is her, her smile, the way she blushes, the scent of her hair, her eyes, the way she smiled.
I dont know what the future will bring, I only know that for a brief few months, that she was a part of my life, I was happier, more enlightened, and once more in love. My hope would be that I didn't screw it up so bad that I cant be forgiven, that maybe there is some hope of us rekindling. Im not sure, but the one thing I do know is that I found love again, so it can happen, the hurt can be healed, and life will go on.
I miss her with all my heart, I love her deeply, I believe she might have been my soul mate, and I want the very best for her, I want her to be happy & be loved, and for her to know Im truly sorry for keeping my emotions trapped.
....even if it isn't with me.
Friday, April 26, 2013
Relationship Realization
Relationships are like the tattoos you get when really drunk... They seem like GREAT idea at the time.
Trying to find a relationship is NOT like wanting to die peacefully in my sleep like my grandfather… it more like the screaming and yelling of the passengers in his car !!!
These are things I joke about on stage, however I have come to realize that maybe there is something truthful about this or maybe Im missing something.
Trying to find a relationship is NOT like wanting to die peacefully in my sleep like my grandfather… it more like the screaming and yelling of the passengers in his car !!!
These are things I joke about on stage, however I have come to realize that maybe there is something truthful about this or maybe Im missing something.
Recently I got the courage up to ask a very beautiful, talented, remarkable person out on a date, to which she said YES! I was very excited, I made the reservation at the restaurant, I reserved a table for a couple drinks at a great local tavern, and then I got a VIP table with bottle service at a club so we could go dancing and enjoy the rest of the evening. The day before the date I get a text saying, "I don't think Im ready to date, I don't feel like Im not allowed to have fun yet. Im sorry I am glad you asked however I don't think I should go".
This really caused me to spiral a bit, I went to a lot of trouble to make sure we would have a great time, I wasn't looking for anything sexual to come from this I wanted to go have a great time with someone that I wanted to get to know. I wanted to see if there was an attraction there, and make it a memorable experience for her. My goal was to treat her to maybe something she wasn't used to, or let her see a side of dating that someone might not have shown her. Instead it cost me some $$, a favor I asked for at the club, and a disappointment that maybe I wasn't good enough for her to go out with.
This might seem like a self pity thing, I did go drinking after to ease some pain & my BF told me this is all her not me, however one cannot help feeling some self doubt. It takes a lot of courage to ask someone out, it would have been easier for her to say right then "Im sorry Im not ready" instead of agreeing and then saying that the day before when all the prep & planning was already made.
So my advise to all guys - Don't stop asking women out, however maybe make the plans the day before or make sure that the commitment is true.
To women - If you say yes, then don't flake out on it, go have fun and at least get to know the guy, he did ask and you did say yes, besides you never know you might actually have fun!!
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Landmark Lawsuit about Ageism in Hollywood Rejected by Jury
Huong Hoang is the Asian-American actress from Texas who filed a lawsuit with the Internet Movie Database (IMDb) initially in 2011 for over one million dollars. According to her suit, the company posted her actual date of birth against her wishes on her IMDb Pro subscription service. She is now 42, but because she has maintained a youthful appearance and tries to pass for younger roles, she filled out her IMDb page claiming to be years younger. Her case has sparked a hot debate over the prevalence and consequences of ageism in the Hollywood entertainment industry. Hoang’s lawsuit claimed:
"In the entertainment, youth is king. If one is perceived to be ‘over the hill,’ i.e., approaching 40, it is nearly impossible for an up-and-coming actress, such as the Plaintiff, to get work as she is thought to have less of an ‘upside,’ therefore, casting directors, producers, directors, agent/managers, etc. do not give her the same opportunities, regardless of her appearance or talent.”
Many actors were glad to have this issue discussed publicly–an issue that affects so many in the acting field. Even SAG and AFTRA came forward to condemn IMDb for its policy on the matter, insisting IMDb was morally obligated to refrain from discrimination in the realm of actor employment.
In response to the suit, IMDb filed for a motion to dismiss the case last week, arguing they had a First Amendment right to publish accurate information, saying:
“Truth and justice are philosophical pillars of this Court. The perpetuation of fraud, even for an actor’s career, is inconsistent with these principles. Plaintiff’s attempt to manipulate the federal court system so she can censor IMDb’s display of her birth date and pretend to the world that she is not 40 years old is selfish, contrary to the public interest and a frivolous abuse of this Court’s resources.”
Additionally, the company asserted it is protecting entertainment consumers from an actress who wants to “more easily deceive the public and prospective employers about her age and potentially be considered for more roles.”
Indeed, Hoang’s suit asserted she was fired from a film after its producers learned of her actual age on IMDb.
Well, a federal jury in Seattle rejected the claim, although the details of the jury’s deliberations have not emerged. At the end of the trial, IMDb’s lawyers said, “Hoang did not present any testimony, documents, or other evidence supporting her damages, allegations of lost income and profits.”
Hoang, who goes by the name Junie Hoang, has appeared in the films Gingerdead Man 3: Saturday Night Cleaver and Hoodrats 2: Hoodrat Warriors. In case you’re wondering just how IMDb even knew her actual birth date, Hoang claims it is because the site used her credit card information along with the PrivateEye.com website. Hoang stated, “What’s at stake here involves far more than just my own career. Anyone who values their privacy and has ever given credit card information to an online company like IMDb or Amazon.com should be concerned about the outcome.”
IMDb is owned by Amazon.com.
Well, there you have it. Are any of you concerned about the outcome of this case? Are you comfortable with IMDb researching actors’ actual birthdays and publishing them online? And, is an actor’s real age relevant for casting purposes or is the age he or she can convincingly play all that really matters?
http://blog.castingfrontier.com/2013/04/15/landmark-lawsuit-about-ageism-in-hollywood-rejected-by-jury/
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
Birthdays!!
Well another year has come and gone, I am truly blessed by all the people that sent me wishes, came to my parties (yes I was thrown more than one), and really reached out to me during this time in my life. As I approach a fantastic year and my career seems to be going in an insane direction, I feel that somewhere, somehow, someone is watching and guiding me into the path of those that want to help, assist, and really want me to succeed.
To everyone that believes, supports, pushes, and helps me on this path... I say Thank You!! Without you guys this wouldn't have happened, I wouldn't have the support and belief I do, I really appreciate everything, and I want you to know I will continue to perform, help make others laugh, and bring inspiration to everyone that comes across my path
Thank You to all my Fans, Friends, Family, and Colleagues.
Love you and good night
~B
To everyone that believes, supports, pushes, and helps me on this path... I say Thank You!! Without you guys this wouldn't have happened, I wouldn't have the support and belief I do, I really appreciate everything, and I want you to know I will continue to perform, help make others laugh, and bring inspiration to everyone that comes across my path
Thank You to all my Fans, Friends, Family, and Colleagues.
Love you and good night
~B
Monday, April 1, 2013
This Day in Horror :-)
1883 - Lon Chaney, Sr. born (d. 1930)
2001 - Faust: Love of the Damned released theatrically
2004 - Resident Evil Outbreak released on the PlayStation 2 in North America
Next 7 Days
April 2
1971 - Dark Shadows ends its run on television
1982 - Cat People (1982) released theatrically
April 3
1961 - Eddie Murphy (actor in Vampire in Brooklyn) born
1962 - Jennifer Rubin (actress in numerous horror films) born
April 4
1932 - Anthony Perkins (actor who portrayed Norman Bates in the Psycho films) born (d. 1992)
1993 - When a Stranger Calls Back premieres on television
2003 - Beyond Re-Animator released theatrically
April 5
1926 - Roger Corman (director of numerous horror films) born
2012 - Piranha 3DD released theatrically
April 6
There were no events this day in horror.
April 7
There were no events this day in horror.
April 8
1955 - Kane Hodder (actor who portrayed Jason Voorhees in several of the Friday the 13th films) born
1977 - Demon Seed released theatrically
Last 7 Days
March 31
2006 - Slither released theatrically
March 30
1996 - Resident Evil released on the PlayStation in the United States
2000 - The Typing of the Dead released on Dreamcast and PC
2001 - Alone in the Dark: The New Nightmare released on Game Boy Color
2012 - [REC] 3:00 Genesis released
March 29
2000 - Resident Evil Code: Veronica released for the Dreamcast in North America
March 28
1920 - Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde (1920) released theatrically
1963 - The Birds released theatrically
1979 - Phantasm released theatrically
March 27
1973 - Sisters released theatrically
1986 - April Fool's Day released theatrically
1991 - Ralph Bates (actor in several Hammer horror films) dies (d. 1940)
March 26
1994 - System Shock released on PC and Mac
March 25
There were no events this day in horror.
Film Review: The Wicked (2013)
http://horrornews.net/69749/film-review-the-wicked-2013/
SYNOPSIS:
A Group of teenagers test the legend of an immortal witch and get more than they bargained for.
REVIEW:
It’s always good to start off a review with the “urban myth-lore legend”. The place? An old house in the woods that is believed to be occupied by an old witch. We are told that if you can get close enough to hit the side of the house without breaking a window, you are safe. If you “do” break a window then the “wicked” come after you. Nice eh!
Scary movies seem to work well when there is a bit of a mythological circumstances surrounding it. We all remember what impact the Blair Witch Project had on us even when there was really nothing to speak of. It’s that suspicion of disbelief that sometimes gives life to things that don’t exist.
In “The Wicked”, we experience really early how a young girl, Amanda Drake (Caitlin Carmichael), is plucked from her room with the fury of a “Poltergeist” film. With the town police not taking the incident too seriously, it’s up to a group of smart-ass kids to get the action started by taking on a dare and visiting the old house in the woods. Oh, ya, did I mention that the “Season of the Equinox” is upon us which means that things are really upping the anty for the group.
Now a few of the terms used in the movie such as the name of the witch and her location were mumbled by so quick that I wasn’t sure I caught them correctly, but for clarity the witch’s house is referred to as “Open Heart”, with the witch herself being called “Ladean Loreen”. There is an old saying that goes with it that goes something along the lines of the witch ” besets her kill”…though there is no need to memorize it. Ladean Loreen was rumored to be burned by witch hunters and as a result her “wicked self” still haunts the old house.
To round up the story, we have 4 young teens who set out to the house in the forest to party and indulge in “the dare”, Zach Reese (Diana Hopper), Tracy (Jackelyn Gauci), Carter (Chase Maser) and actress Jess Adams as Julie Rand (who looks to be a shoe-in for the next potential Megan Fox) make up the group.
Working its way on the side is actress Diana Hopper playing the cute, but feisty Sammy who develops a crush on Zach’s brother Max Reese (Devon Werkheiser. They also set out to spy on the group and check out the old place providing a subplot to move with the story.
To complicate things, we have 2 deputies (dumb-shits) Karl and Mahoney who take their job way too serious and then not seriously enough (when it counts). They provide the comedy relief and the much needed (but useless) strong arm element.
The witch (Ladean Loreen) proves to be effective as a decent horror character that echoes traces of “Darkness Falls”. On one hand she is able to teleport around into puffs of smoke sporting a rather demon-like mug that usually is well concealed beneath her hooded cloak. On the other, she has a nasty way of grinding up little kids into meaty bits so that she can indulge in a bowl of immortality soup. Now if you’d skipped ahead into the credits you’ve already probably made note that the witch (as nasty as she appears) is played by hottie Cassie Keller (there’s your early hint) who fixes up real nice into one of the sexiest actresses I’ve seen in awhile. Though for the record it is young actress Diana Hopper of whom we’ll want to be keeping an eye on and who I’m predicting will go onto to great things!
In all, the film has the rhythm and pace of a “House of Wax” film. I’ve seen enough of these films, that despite what you might read in reviews, it’s a pretty good young teen horror film. The characters fit perfectly in the market model it was intended for and it keeps enough thrills churning to keep you plenty entertained.
Directed by Peter Winther, “The Wicked” was shot in Detroit, Michigan which is always a plus from my perspective in the interest of keeping work in the good ol USA. Ultimately I walked away with the impression that “The Wicked” is entertaining horror with plenty of shocking twists! A great pick for an evening of horror, humor and chills….just…. Don’t turn out the lights!
The Wicked (2013)
Read more at http://horrornews.net/69749/film-review-the-wicked-2013/#VHSOgJABBj1HUUEZ.99
Funny Man Brett Hunt Can’t Stop Smiling - Brood Sugar Magazine Article
Los Angeles Actor/Comedian, Brett Hunt has great things happening in the world of film, comedy and music. When great people are doing great things, every once in a blue
moon, great things do come their way.
http://broodsugar.com/funny-man-brett-hunt-cant-stop-smiling/
moon, great things do come their way.
http://broodsugar.com/funny-man-brett-hunt-cant-stop-smiling/
Brett Hunt To Receive United Nations Human Rights Award
Brett Hunt, a two-time Los Angeles Comedy Award Nominee for 2013, has been selected to receive the United Nations “Youth for Human Rights Philanthropic Award” for 2013.
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Mr. Hunt has also been nominated for two 2013 Los Angeles Comedy Awards; the “The Rising Star Award” & “The Producers Choice Award.”
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Courage
Courage - Do you have what it takes?
Courage is a hard thing to figure. You can have courage based on a dumb idea or mistake, but you're not supposed to question adults, or your coach or your teacher, because they make the rules. Maybe they know best, but maybe they don't. It all depends on who you are, where you come from. Didn't at least one of the six hundred guys think about giving up, and joining with the other side? I mean, valley of death that's pretty salty stuff. That's why courage it's tricky. Should you always do what others tell you to do? Sometimes you might not even know why you're doing something. I mean any fool can have courage. But honor, that's the real reason for you either do something or you don't. It's who you are and maybe who you want to be. If you die trying for something important, then you have both honor and courage, and that's pretty good. I think that's what the writer was saying, that you should hope for courage and try for honor. Maybe even pray that the people telling you what to do have some, too.
~Michael Oher (The Blind Side)
Courage is a hard thing to figure. You can have courage based on a dumb idea or mistake, but you're not supposed to question adults, or your coach or your teacher, because they make the rules. Maybe they know best, but maybe they don't. It all depends on who you are, where you come from. Didn't at least one of the six hundred guys think about giving up, and joining with the other side? I mean, valley of death that's pretty salty stuff. That's why courage it's tricky. Should you always do what others tell you to do? Sometimes you might not even know why you're doing something. I mean any fool can have courage. But honor, that's the real reason for you either do something or you don't. It's who you are and maybe who you want to be. If you die trying for something important, then you have both honor and courage, and that's pretty good. I think that's what the writer was saying, that you should hope for courage and try for honor. Maybe even pray that the people telling you what to do have some, too.
~Michael Oher (The Blind Side)
Prosperity
"Prosperity is not so much what you have in hand but what you have in your heart".
Prosperity can be summed up with three specific areas:
1. Material Prosperity
- It's not "how much" you have but rather "how happy" you are with what you have.
- It's being thankful for what you already possess and not being annoyed by what you don't.
- It's not the quantity of what we possess, it's more the quality we are in ourselves as we look upon any possessions.
2. Mental Prosperity
- Is having the peace of mind in a world where it is possessed by so few.
- It's knowing the difference between the effects caused by positive or negative thinking, and CHOOSING to think positively.
- It's being able to forgive, and thus receive the mental blessing of a clear mind not one darkened by anger, hate, or revenge.
3. Spiritual Prosperity
- Knowing that the true place of worship is the "Church within you".
- Knowing how to find the "straight and narrow gate" that leads your conscious everyday mind past the spiritual gate in your own mind into the "church within you".
- To enter the "church within" and receive the peace, blessings, and love from within your own divinity.
Prosperity can be summed up with three specific areas:
1. Material Prosperity
- It's not "how much" you have but rather "how happy" you are with what you have.
- It's being thankful for what you already possess and not being annoyed by what you don't.
- It's not the quantity of what we possess, it's more the quality we are in ourselves as we look upon any possessions.
2. Mental Prosperity
- Is having the peace of mind in a world where it is possessed by so few.
- It's knowing the difference between the effects caused by positive or negative thinking, and CHOOSING to think positively.
- It's being able to forgive, and thus receive the mental blessing of a clear mind not one darkened by anger, hate, or revenge.
3. Spiritual Prosperity
- Knowing that the true place of worship is the "Church within you".
- Knowing how to find the "straight and narrow gate" that leads your conscious everyday mind past the spiritual gate in your own mind into the "church within you".
- To enter the "church within" and receive the peace, blessings, and love from within your own divinity.
Negative Thinking
Whenever you have a letdown, disappointment, or negative situation IMMEDIATELY catch yourself and think - "This seemingly negative situation is in reality a blessing, for it is a turning point into another direction where a greater good will manifest"!!!
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